Wednesday, April 13, 2011

plans

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" - Jeremiah 29:11

I've always been a planner. It all goes back to my inherent planner gene. (Thanks for that, Mom.) Parties, shopping lists, schedules, the future. You name it, I've probably planned it. I was subtly reminded this month that I can't always have plans. Shockingly, my plans aren't always the best plans, regardless of how fantastic I think they are or the sense of accomplishment I get when I sit back and look at list upon list that I've drawn up. And God has been holding true to His word with me. I am somehow scoring above average on all of my exams and quizzes in school (a truly miraculous feat). I'm not light-years behind on homework. I have a job, a roof over my head, and the most loving and supportive husband I could have ever dreamed of. We have family and friends who love us and bless us frequently. We have a precious cat that can often times be a handful but will occasionally redeem herself with a bite-free cuddle sesh. There's not much I can complain about.

But lately I feel like there's something missing. I have yet to put my finger on it. Fear not overprotective family & friends: the something missing is not a hint that we're going to take up trying for a baby. I think what's missing is church. We have yet to find a church near our new apartment. Admittedly, we only tried out one and it was awful. In fact, it was so bad that it left a dreadful cloud over the prospects of having to try out an additional church in fear that it might be equally as bad. That's a really horrible thing to say. But it's true. It left us feeling dark and desolate on the insides.

Thus our tough spot: we need a church family so desperately need to nurture our spirits. Our work and school routines have left little time for much else, which is no excuse. In a mound of despair we just want to go back to the church we were attending at our old apartment. However, it is so far from our new place and we feel strongly that we should go to a church in our community. I'm not sure what God's plan is for us on this one. And I don't like being unsure. 

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