Sunday, September 11, 2011

never forget

Ten years ago today, I woke up naive but went to bed with a heavy heart. For the first time in my life, I had a glimpse at just how screwed up the world we live in is.

I was 12; a seventh grader. My math teacher ran to the television after receiving a phone call. She cried. We looked on in horror and confusion. I didn't fully understand the implications of what I was witnessing, but by my teacher's reaction I knew it couldn't be good.

My parents ended up picking me up early from school that day. When I got home, we spent the next few hours glued to the television, trying to make sense of what was happening. In the days that followed, I remember how eerie it was for there to be no airplanes in sight. We lived near Hopkins International Airport, so my entire childhood was filled with airplanes landing and taking off around the clock. They actually brought me comfort when I was little and afraid to sleep. Just knowing there was someone else awake at that moment in time filled me with peace. That loss of peace left a gaping hole in how I viewed my world. How could there be so much evil and hate? I know that things will never be the same; I knew that within hours. I'll never understand why these things happen. I've stopped trying to make sense of it. All I can do is never forget. I'll share my story with my children. I'll appreciate the first responders (and soldiers) who have given their lives so that I have freedom and safety. And I'll hope that future generations can do better by humanity than previous ones.

"Psalm 115:3 reveals, 'Our God is in heaven; he does whatever pleases him.' Yet we keep on questioning Him: 'Why did You make me with this body, instead of that one?' 'Why are so many people dying of  starvation?' 'Why are there so many planets with nothing living on them?' 'Why is my family so messed up?' 'Why don’t You make Yourself more obvious to the people who need You?' The answer to each of these questions is simply this: because He’s God. He has more of a right to ask us why so many people are starving. As much as we want God to explain himself to us, His creation, we are in no place to demand that He give an account to us." - Francis Chan

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