Tuesday, November 8, 2011

the only thing in my way is myself

I am my worst enemy. Just about anyone who knows me at least moderately well could tell you that. I'm not going to go into detail about this today as I currently lack the appropriate words to use. My self esteem is minimal and I go through each day confident that I have messed something up in some way or another. It's something I've been working on, but I feel like I've barely made progress.

One step forward, two steps back. Always.

I think that's partially why church really spoke to me on Sunday. The sermon was all about how the battle against evil has been won from the moment Christ died on the cross--it's not our job to fight for victory in Christ, but rather from victory. Jesus took care of the hard part. We just have to stand up in the victory He won for us and hold steadfast. Oh how I lack that skill set.

“When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive with Christ.  He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross.  And having disarmed the powers and authorities, he made a public spectacle of  them, triumphing over them by the cross.” - Colossians 2:13-15

I've been in a very stagnant place with regard to my relationship with God. It's not that I feel distant, I just don't feel close. Music is a huge part of my life. Even though I'm not musically inclined, I tend to best deal with my emotions with Zune in hand. There are two songs, both by the same band, that I have been drawn to recently:

I couldn't find the official music video for the next song on my blogger search bar, so I included one with a still image of the album cover. If you can tolerate screamo then I recommend you search for the official video on youtube -- it's called "In Regards to Myself" by Underoath:

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