Sunday, January 22, 2012

catching up

I've been delaying publishing this post for literally weeks. By now I think you know why. Since we waited to share the great news, I decided to keep a running draft of the things I'm feeling in the meantime.

Black Friday 2011 - Easily the BF I'll always remember. I was sick with an unknown bug for weeks leading up to today and finally it messed with my asthma in all the worst ways. I went to an Urgent Care to get some medical attention.They ran tests. The doctor returned. "I have an early Christmas present for you..." I drove straight to Jon's work where I broke down in tears. I could barely get the words out. "We're going to have a baby." I collapse in Jon's arms, sobbing. I'm exactly 4 weeks pregnant.

11/26/11 - I took a 2nd test today. Just to make sure.

11/28/11 - I went to the doctor today for blood work to see if I'm "pregnant enough" to schedule my first ultrasound. I may have called the doctor's office 13 times before they opened to schedule my appointment. Oops.

11/29/11 -  Guess who's "pregnant enough"?  I'm blood type O-, I'm Rh negative (which could mean complications down the road) and my HCG level was 598. We scheduled our first ultrasound for December 19 at 9:15 am. It's finally hitting me. Tonight I yelled at Jon that our apartment is much too small, our furniture is much too big, and I'm starting to get anxious about all of this. Then I made a mental note to beg my mom to re-arrange our apartment to make it feel bigger once we break the news to everyone at Christmas. Baby, you've been keeping me up at night for nearly 4 days now, but I'm not tired during the day. It's a strange switch from the chronic fatigue I always seemed to battle...

12/2/11 - Today I'm 5 weeks. I think the fatigue is finally starting to hit. I haven't been sleeping well--lots and lots of bathroom runs. I can only imagine what life will be like when baby's big enough to sit on my bladder!

12/6/11 - We saw Jon's parents over the weekend. It was the first time we saw them since we found out. It was SO hard not saying anything. I've also started to have cravings for things like vegetables. I've probably eaten my weight in veggies over the last few days. I seriously can't get enough. Thus far I've had no encounters with morning sickness or anything of the like, for which I am eternally grateful. I hope it stays that away!

12/9/11 - 6 weeks! Morning sickness is officially in full force. Along with the morning sickness are some serious food aversions. Grocery shopping is a nightmare. Nothing sounds appetizing. I've been eating lots of saltines and cuties which are thus far tolerable, but some of my normally favorite foods (orange chicken, asparagus, hobo burritos, etc.) are definitely on the "not a chance" list right now.

12/16/11 - 7 weeks! You're the size of a blueberry today, Baby Flip. You also still make me VERY nauseous most of the time--I have no appetite for just about anything! And yet, I've gained 2 pounds since I became pregnant. I don't understand. I also hope there aren't two of you in there--Mommy probably can't handle two at first. My family is celebrating Christmas on Sunday night--that's when we're telling them about you. I'm very nervous about it, not sure how they'll react. Don't worry, though, we're going to video tape it so you can see how Gram & Gramps TRULY felt about you at first ;)

12/18/11 - Today we told my family about you. To do this, we wrapped up this present and handed it to them:

They were all happy. At first my mom thought we got them ear plugs as a bit of a gag gift because my parents are both notorious snorers. We got their reactions on tape but I'm not sure how the audio checked out. I need to check it. Tomorrow we get to see the babe in an ultrasound for the first time. I'm very nervous that something will be wrong. Please let that sweet heart of yours be beating, my dear...

12/19/11 - Dear baby: We got to see you today. We also got to hear your heartbeat! The second the ultrasound tech turned on the screen she said, "I already see the heartbeat!" More comforting words have never been spoken. She said everything looks great, your heartbeat was 159 beats per minute. I panicked at first when I saw your yolk sac because I thought you had a sibling in there. The tech reassured me that it was indeed just a yolk sac and that you're the only bean in my belly. She confirmed I am approximately 7 weeks, 3 days pregnant and due around August 3. The next time we'll get to see you is at 20 weeks for an "anatomical" scan. I have appointments about once per month for check-ups, though, so we can make sure I stay healthy for you.

12/21/11 - Baby Flip, today you made me fall off my rocker. I have been craving an eggnog latte (decaf, obviously) for about two weeks now so on my lunch I ventured to Starbucks, gift card in hand, to obtain one. What do I order, instead? Gingerbread latte. What do TWO separate baristas ask me? "So you had the gingerbread latte?" How do I respond? "Yep!" When does it hit me? When I notice the "GL" on the cup. How do I react? Sobs. Pathetic, uncontrollable, call-Jon-about-how-irrational-my-life-has-become sobs. And the worst part is I know how much it was my fault (seriously; they asked me THREE TIMES) and how irrational my emotional response is. All Jon said was, "it's just your pregnancy brain and hormones. It's okay." He's right, but this is just sad. In related news, this tall, decaf, gingerbread latte is pretty good.

12/23/11 - 8 weeks! Still dealing with the nausea and also a pregnancy-related UTI. The antibiotics they have me on upset my stomach, but I'm trying to hang in there. These food aversions have gotten out of hand. I'm down 6 pounds since finding out you exist.

12/25/11 - We told Jon's parents and his extended family last night and the rest of his family today. We also broke the news to several of our friends today. Everyone is pretty excited about you, little one. We're pretty excited about you, too.

12/27/11 - Misery. Today marks the first time I have actually gotten physically sick with this morning sickness. I also called my doctor because I'm having all sorts of lady part problems. She called in another prescription for me and I'm hoping this will take care of all these issues once and for all. All I know is that right now I am absolutely falling apart. August 3 can't come soon enough.

12/29/11 - Threw up again today despite starting a vitamin B6/Unisom regimen that seemed to help with the nausea aspect of morning sickness last night. I also have a horrendous cold and am entirely worn out. I told Jon last night we must be having a boy because it feels like this baby is sucking the life out of me. Jon said that sounds more indicative of a girl. We'll know in about 7 months.

12/30/11 - 9 weeks. I was too sick to get the 8 week picture. Oops.

1/5/12 - I realized today that Girl Scout cookie season is upon us. As a result, this is what I've been looking at for 20 minutes:
I signed up to find 'dem cookies. This website is seriously my pregnancy porn. BUT WHO DOESN'T LOVE A COOKIE WITH A MISSION??

1/10/12 - We hit 10 weeks on Friday but haven't taken a picture yet. Oops! I had a check-up today and I got to hear the heartbeat on the Doppler! I panicked at first because it took the nurse about 30 seconds to find it. Once she did, though, it was clear as day. Today is the first day I think it's actually hit me. It hasn't completely hit me, just a little. Nonetheless, we're having a baby!!

1/22/12 - If this seems to end abruptly it's because it does--morning sickness has really kept me down and out lately. We super dropped the ball on belly photos. We're 12 weeks and 2 days today and so glad we can finally openly talk about this huge event in our lives.


  1. CONGRATULATIONS!! Try packing in the protein in whatever way is appetizing - it will help balance your blood sugar and help with the nausea. It can be 6 peanuts every hour, greek yogurt, chicken drumsticks, cheesesticks..... aim for more protein and less sugar. Also, IT IS WORTH IT! No matter how bad it feels sometimes! Let me know if you need anything... or to commiserate :)

    1. Thanks Laura! One of the things that's encouraged me thus far is seeing your posts about your morning sickness/it getting easier. I am praying for similar relief!