Monday, December 9, 2013

five stages

Upon the discovery that I can use the blogger android app to write and publish blogs without viewing a feed of others, I've decided to bare my heart to the world. Full disclosure is something I've prided myself on so I don't feel right hiding myself during one of my biggest struggles. Truth be told, writing is a form of therapy for me so it is probably ill advised for me to stop.  The content here will likely be depressing for a while and honestly I'd almost prefer you didn't read because I'll be sharing some of my mortifying thoughts that I'm pretty ashamed of. In any case, it's a free world and I'm making my soul open for public consumption so please be gentle with me. My heart is hurting and while I thought I had dealt with everything and closed that chapter I'm realizing that I was really just in the swells of the first stage of grief. The tides have shifted and I think it's fair to say I've moved on from denial and am entrenched in anger. My Facebook page will remain deactivated and I won't be reading my usual rotation of blogs as I cope, but I still check my email on the regular so if you want to talk privately and don't know my phone number feel free to email me. If I know you personally, I ask that you don't bring up any of the upcoming content when we talk as that's just too intimate for me to handle comfortably right now. I know it's counterintuitive that I can write something for the universe to read but can't carry a simple conversation about, but that's just where I am right now. I appreciate your understanding on the matter.

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