Monday, January 27, 2014

the end of breastfeeding

Now that it has been about two weeks, I can say with certainty that we have ended our breastfeeding journey. The official wean was somewhat unplanned as I started a night we went to Jon's parent's for dinner. He was doing fine without it and I had set an 18-month deadline for myself. I had ultimately hoped he would wean himself but I think he would have nursed til he was 8 if I had given him the choice and that was so not happening.
a lover like his mama
I know there's nothing wrong with nursing past a year and a half, but I was mostly of the mentality that if shorty was able to ask for it he was too old to continue. Personal choice, no rights or wrongs, politically correct statement, blah blah blah. Not only would Elden frequently stop what was doing to ask, "dest?" (Elden speak for 'breast') but he would often aggressively pull at my shirt and/or chase me around the house. The pulling up of the shirt was especially uncomfortable in public, hence my 18-month deadline.

It was a simple transition seeing as we had cut down to just one session per day, right after his bath and right before bed. Since I hadn't planned on stopping that night I hadn't treasured the "last session" like I would have expected myself. If I think about this intensely I feel slight pangs of regret, but it really doesn't cross my mind.

On the whole, it doesn't seem to cross Elden's mind either. The exception would be when he sees me getting dressed for work in the morning. Let's paint you a disturbing little picture, shall we? The other day as I was putting on my bra Elden was playing by the side of our bed. As soon as he saw my goodies he stopped playing, his eyes locked on the girls. His mouth fell agape, thus allowing the pacifier to drop to the floor. He then slowly moved towards me, never breaking gaze, mouth more agape than ever.

THE STUFF OF NIGHTMARES. In any event, that closes the book on one of the simplest and most beautiful bonds I forged with my little guy. It was quite the experience and I'm thankful I was able to have it, but I am also so relieved that I don't have to deal with sharing my body 24/7 with someone else anymore...

2 comments:

  1. Congrats to you, mama. What an amazing thing to have been able to breastfeed for so long!

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  2. I am at worked and nearly literally LOL at your second to last paragraph. Glad you and your goodies are free! :P

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