Tuesday, May 23, 2017

life update

Things just got pretty crazy over here.

We are officially preparing our house to sell.

I vacillate between excited to find some financial freedom, sad because I love our house, and downright terrified that we are making a grave mistake.

The reality is, if I lose my part-time income (which - with a small startup is always possible), we will no longer be living within our means. Jon could and would absolutely find something part time if it came to that, but the point is that it hasn't and we don't particularly want him to have to do the retail grind at this moment in time. What's the point in having a great house in a better neighborhood if we are never there to enjoy it together?

So right now we are scrambling to get it showing ready with a hopeful list date of early June.

We'd LOVE to stay in the town we live in - the preschool is amazing and truly the thing I am most upset about potentially losing - but there's a decent chance we need to move a county over because property taxes here are just too high.

So, that's where we are. We are exhausted in every way, praying that we find something for less (quickly) that meets our most basic needs, and praying that we haven't made a terrible mistake.

A few things could happen:
-we could not get offers in the price range that would make sense for us to sell and downsize and therefore Jon will have to get a part-time job for a few years while we stay put
-we could get offers in the price range that would make it impossible for us not to sell

I've never pretended to know exactly what God thinks I should do. I've always trusted Him to open and close doors in a way that would be best for our family, but I don't know that God is telling me moving is the best choice right now. It feels like it's so, but I could also be letting fear rule my life. If you could just pray for us, we would really appreciate it right now.


  1. I'm a long time reader, but don't think I've ever commented again. As I tyoe, I'm moving cross con try from San Francisco to Philadelphia to be closer to family and pursue adoption from the foster care as a single person. I say all that to say that I feel the moving pain and also the giant fear/anxiety of big life change. I'll be praying for you as you're doing this work and also the listing/oder process. May God make his plans for you abundantly clear!

    1. You are so sweet. Solidarity, sister - I keep telling myself I could be faced with so much more uncertainty with far less support than I've got, but it's so hard to see the positives when the fear of the unknown is all but ready to swallow me up.